Sunday, March 04, 2007
The "WEIGHT" is not over!
Okay, so I spent the past two days shopping with my daughter. We swept through two malls, Loehmanns, and two shoes warehouses.My sister Ellen loves to shop...she'll be jealous just reading about it! My feet are in desperate need of a massage! While shopping and trying on clothes(producing enough anxiety for a continent), the wait began. I took two sizes into the dressing room...the "I'm sure it will fit," and the "I pray this one fits." While I waited for the next available dressing room I couldn't help but think about the other wait, I mean "weight." I spent my entire childhood, "cute, but chubby," and believe me it was not pleasant. As a young adult I embarked on a Weight Watchers journey, ultimately bringing me down to a size 6-8. Aside from pregnancies I have stayed close to those sizes. Thanks to our society sizes do matter! It's hard to look away from the number on the ticket. Size has always defined who I was and I believe it still does. Anyway, as I embark on this Renewed Gluten Free Journey, a new struggle begins. Not having the luxuries of really good gluten free carbs just a few years ago has transformed into WOW, this is really good. Ask me how many Cherrybrook Farms chocolate chip cookies I've inhaled in the past three days! So now....I'm no longer taking just one bite of non-gf food and cheating. I'm clean, absolutely clean! But, one bite of the yummy gluten free bread and cookies isn't enough. I'm so terribly afraid that my WEIGHT will turn into double digits (heaven forbid). But, I've spent 5 years WAITING for yummy gf substitutions. Am I rambling on? Sorry, just venting I guess, about the WEIGHT issue that has plagued me all of my life. Anyone else out there on our planet with the same experience or struggling with the same issue? Please give me your two cents or more....Convince me that WEIGHT isn't nearly as important as health. Yes, I know it is but I don't think anyone living on a different planet really understands the struggle. With that said, I am excited because I'm making gf hamantashen (the PURIM cookie)AND I've decided to play hooky tomorrow, stay home, and drown in my cookies and milk. Then, I'll make my sister's GF chocolate chip cookies...what else could I make? Wanna join?